I am here.

It is thought that waking up every day is a blessing from God, 
but for some of us, it is quite the reverse.

Although your body moves, your thoughts are sluggish, ponderous, and oppressive.
Your stomach begs for food, but your mind refuses...

You want to be thin and little, therefore you reject and disregard all of the lyrics in the song that scare your beauty.

This slows you down ten times faster than previously. You could wonder, "Why am I here?"

Is this how a human in his or her natural state should feel? 

Where has the promised motivation gone? 

Where is the love that should be all around me at all times? 

Why am I the one whose tears bring rain and storms? 

Why am I carrying out the command “Cry me a river”?

These are the things you say as you desperately want to end it all. 

You want to stop feeling that sharp pain in your chest every time you think about the times you were happy…

The days when you'd plan your fun activities, now you're wishing you don’t wake up to see the sun which shines with all its might while you slowly die inside.

But you deny to cry out for help because in the end all they do is refuse.

Written by Omaria

Photo Credits( Alex Buhler)