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The chapter of 2022 has closed and a new one has been turned. We all hope for better this year and truth be told I believe it can happen.  Today we can choose how we proceed in our actions, tomorrow we can adjust the mistakes of today, and yesterday's problems are simply the past. It's all somewhat easier said than done but nevertheless we won't know if it's possible if we don't try. This year I plan to take more risks, grow spiritually and leave those behind that only wish to see me sink. 2022 was hard but we made it, who would have thought? Never doubt that you can because the very impossible is very possible in this world.  So take control of your dreams and don't allow others to dictate your future. I might not know who I will be in the Next year or two but what I do know is right now in this moment I'm happy.  Here are a few things I found that will hopefully get me through a year filled with unknowns. 1. Trust your instincts, the least you can be is wr...

You promised. Promise to never leave, these promises of empty platitudes I believed. These words I held onto but your actions proved my belief wrong. It was never truly about me, but always of you which I never complained about. However, now that I'm here cleaning your mess I wish I had said something. I try to hold onto you because I promised to never leave, but now that you have left, I wonder how much longer will I keep my word. You promised to try but like every word you utter, it is a lie and that’s why I never believe your words because your actions always prove me wrong. You only want me when you need me. You have proven my inner demons right. Indeed they were when they said you would leave and come running back in times of trouble. Indeed I was to believe what they said was true. For you did leave, you left me...Ironically now that you have returned, you want me to stay. Making me state a promise after you broke me. “ In life, people come and go, and we usually try to hold...

It's the start of a new year yet I feel there is no need to celebrate. Of course, I am happy that I'm still going but it just feels like I've started losing the joy of the holidays that go by. I remember always being excited for my birthday, a new year, Christmas, easter, and the rest but now it just seems like I'm outgrowing what used to make up my childhood. As such, I'm feeling increasingly conflicted as the years go by. I am now getting an understanding of why people don't celebrate or care for them much anymore but to be honest, I really want to keep those occasions a part of my usual lifestyle and I want to be able to count down the days and feel the regular enthusiastic me. Somehow it feels like a chunk of my heart has been ripped out and I'm losing what seems to be my childhood adventures and venturing into the world of adulthood. Not only am I scared, but the pressure of becoming an adult and the expectations that come with it will start to bear on ...